It was my first relationship and i don't know much about these thing.All this while , i didn't know what is " love myself" at all but now i do.I admit a zero self control of myself and my emotions and definitely a big zero for myself .
I learnt a lot from her and i guess most people learnt from their mistakes and in each relationship to be mature in this kind of thing where i've lost someone that i love very much , really very much :(
Which i think that sux cause you lost someone precious to you in order to be mature and grow up along the joruney.Learnt and realize a lot along the way this couple of months.
This when i realize about karma that it actually exists after what i've done.Can't brag about it since i've done and did the damage, just gonna live with the mistakes i done and move on with my life.Nothing i can do now , not even friends ,Appreciate while you still can ..it's really true.
How stupid and immature i was last time done something like that.
I feel very bad about all those event :(
Not proud of it and to prevent them from happening again, i won't do the same again to protect my love ones from now.
I'm so sorry jing jing :(
Thinking of her most of the time really.
The feeling somehow matured than last time for sure but things never meant to be although my heart is still right here waiting.
Hope she's happier without me at least i know she's happier now.
She doesn't want me anymore due to my immature behavior , certain couple things that hard to go along with and long distances.
I will always be there for her if she still needs me.
Really misses her very much .Can't forget the last departure in my head, she waving happily at me :'( that moment before my passport got stamped. I wanted to just walk out and hug her and stay.
Till then.
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