Family

After all this shit, i think i deserve a break with my family for now.
This is the second time i'm going back to my family for family comfort,
i lost all my money and job in singapore.
The first time was the break up with my ex, my first gf and it was bad.

I want to give myself a break away from singapore and her.
It just not the right time for me to talk to her and all where the bf is trying to get her back , i want to back off, i just want to disappear , want to forget those memories, so close yet so far .I am emotionally upset now but i'll be alright.
A quote pops into my mind today regarding about this " oceans of seafoods"

Just arrived home not long ago,been thinking about her as well. This is killing me.
I've done everything to let her know how i feel, nothing i can do anymore.
If she made the move to talk to me at some point,
i'll go straight to the point ask her about her feelings for me since she is single now , of course i know she's still recovering and not in any state for dating and etc.
I am not pushing or what so ever, i just want to know whether she has feelings for me and if in the future we have the possibilities to date to be together. That's the only thing i want to know from her and i'll be satisfy .What happened before, every single thing was so obvious, i just need to listen the words coming out from her that's all. What i'm feeling now is literally wanted to disappear away from her and civilization and try to move on from those memories.


Follow the flow and waiting.
If things meant to be, we will be together eventually.
But with everything happened, i can't lose the way i feel about her.