Everything happens for a reason

Job that i was supposed to get didn't goes as planned ended up with extra memories, which is good for me . It made me realize a lot of things in life, work and relationship.

2 jobs and her. Really realize a lot, the way i should be, professionalism at work , the way you should react even though how much you hated it. I thought i was ready for a relationship, i looked back what happened since May and August. I am not ready, now i know what was in their mind but it's never too late to realize and be the person i wanted to be now! Actions speaks louder than words and i am finally doing it now thx to these people that talked to me and inspired me in life.
She is one smart person, i am no where near to her. By looking the way i reacted back then , really reminded me when i lost my first but hey! after 2 days, i am totally fine cause a friend reminded me one thing, "i am not ugly" and mum said , " the ocean is full of seafoods" lol Yes. Just needed time to digest. Finally figured out everything, i know where she's coming from and all, "smart" and "professional" That's the way i am heading to now. I am not ready myself, unsecured jobs and income and life. After all this , i've finally figured out all of them.

I'll be ready soon , i knew it. After my bloody wisdom tooth and i am ready to commit myself to what i wanted and there is not extra time for relationship and that's probably what she had in mind as well. "Jump into a relationship when you are ready and happy to begin with"
Thank you very much wiing. I accepted the truth and from now on i will face the truth although how much i hated changes in life but that's part of life ,where i am ready now :))

Never felt so ready,I am happy now. I know what i wanted in life but never actually found the way to get there since but now, i am looking for the right way to get there, my first step now.
Hope i can make it and work towards to be the person i wanted to be for my future and another half.

A new start, new job , new home,  to work my ass off! Gonna get rid of my wisdom tooth soon after my gum is less swollen. Now i look like i got punched by a 90kg dude.
So tired, kept on sleeping and enjoy every single minute i can at home!