She

It hurts me all the time,
i still can't afford to let go what ever i'm holding on to.
My heart is feeling sad and lonely ,at some point asking myself why am i doing this to hurt myself this way.It's always just me that giving in to people who don't even bother what i'm doing.
Will i meet this special someone that i've been waiting for? The lady version of me...

I feel like disappearing ...
May be i was just too emotional , i know this kind of things might take time before yourself can settle down.